Maria had a crush on Mark. But Mark was going out with Jen. And I had a crush on Maria but I thought I was too worthless for her. Mark wanted to…
Maria had a crush on Mark. But Mark was going out with Jen. And I had a crush on Maria but I thought I was too worthless for her. Mark wanted to be a writer. He read James Joyce and could quote Thomas Pynchon. He had a beard. He wanted to write “The Great American […]
1. Got depressed because my dad went broke, lost our home, and went insane. He’d cry all the time, ask me, “What’s wrong with me?” and listen to music until he died.…
1. Got depressed because my dad went broke, lost our home, and went insane. He’d cry all the time, ask me, “What’s wrong with me?” and listen to music until he died. 2. Got depressed because the first 10 girls I asked out didn’t like me and said no. Two actually ran away before I […]
At 23 I had all the bad habits. I ate horribly. I could eat McDonald’s four meals a day, drink until I passed out, and then start again the next day. I…
At 23 I had all the bad habits. I ate horribly. I could eat McDonald’s four meals a day, drink until I passed out, and then start again the next day. I had bad relationships. And I was bad to my family, my professors, my girlfriends, and sometimes my friends. I had horrible acne, cysts […]
My back hurts. When I wake up, it doesn’t hurt. I’ve been lying flat on it. I think to myself, “it won’t hurt today.” Then I lean up and try to get…
My back hurts. When I wake up, it doesn’t hurt. I’ve been lying flat on it. I think to myself, “it won’t hurt today.” Then I lean up and try to get out of bed and I feel a sharp pain. It’s going to hurt. And it’s going to hurt all day. I have to […]
In mid-2002 I was so depressed I simply ran out of ideas. Depression scorches the earth of your brain. I would sit in it at 3 in the morning in the dark.…
In mid-2002 I was so depressed I simply ran out of ideas. Depression scorches the earth of your brain. I would sit in it at 3 in the morning in the dark. Lord of my crumbling kingdom. Every day I went a little more broke and there was nothing I could do about it. Going […]
I was out of ideas when I googled “how to kill myself”. I was sure that three things were going to happen: I’d go broke (and then my 3 year old would…
I was out of ideas when I googled “how to kill myself”. I was sure that three things were going to happen: I’d go broke (and then my 3 year old would starve to death), nobody would kiss me ever again, and I would die because of course self worth = net worth (duh!). I […]
90% of the feedback I got about “Choose Yourself” was about one thing: How to bridge harsh reality with the world of imagination: how to become an Idea Machine. For my whole…
90% of the feedback I got about “Choose Yourself” was about one thing: How to bridge harsh reality with the world of imagination: how to become an Idea Machine. For my whole life I felt like a stray dog, dashing around until I could survive in the jungle. But I was lost and it took a long time.
